Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Good taxpayers money

Dear all... project 88 is going slowly as expected as they are way tooo many distractions. I was at the clinic earlier as i'm currently suffering a bout of cough. The doctor weighed me and the verdict was 115. Sigh. Still a long way to go - but i'm sure i will get there.

I recently received an assessment from the IRB for like RM5k for YA2008. I went - WTF? will need to sort that out since i've already paid my taxes for YA2008.

Anyhow - back to the topic at hand. Its interesting where our taxdollars goes to. The recent 2011 budget announced another Bolehland project i.e. the Mega Tower. - Seriously - why the fuck do we need another 'mega' building which costs like 5billion bucks. Why can't we use those money to educate the people in the kampungs or improve the roads in the rural areas, etc.

I received an email today. Its clearly a forwarded mail which came with some pictures of Khir Toyo expense claims between 2004 and 2009. Now, i'm no expert and I cannot verify the authenticity of the pictures, but I must say that in my line of work where I would need to review various source documents such as payment vouchers, they do look like the real deal.

Based on those few vouchers, my emotions of hate and disgust reached boiling point. Its like rape of an innocent. I've said before that its only natural for politicians to benefit from their positions, but they as powers that be must know when to draw the line. What i saw was pure greed and selfishness. They were a bunch of travel claims to various locations. Some of which appears to be expensive - fucking expensive holidays which i doubt i'll ever get the benefit of enjoying.

To think that he had the nerve to 'play innocent' during an interview sometime back really pissed me off further. These are extracts of the said interview :

Q: People are shocked by the RM1.7mil spent for the Disney trips?

A: That was decided by the management. I am actually a very simple man. I do not ask for these kind of things. Maybe they said as a chairman, that is my entitlement and they did that.

Q: You say you are a simple man but people would disagree because you fly first class and stay at expensive presidential suites?

A: You must remember when I was the (PNSB) chairman. I have my entitlement. If I were to reduce my entitlement to what an officer gets then what is the officer going to reduce to? I am the chairman. There is the deputy chairman, board of directors, government officers going along. If I fly business class (not first class), then what happens to my state secretary? He will complain. If I am travelling alone it is easier. But I am travelling with a group of people and if I downgrade myself - it’s a problem for the others. But I never ask (for the pricey presidential suites or first class flights). Whatever they provide, I go along with. I just tell them to give me a full itinerary on these trips. I want a full programme with investors and companies.

Seriously guys - what's up with this moron?

Its interesting how he puts his claims as technical visits. Technical visits MY ASS motherfucker! There's a claim made to PNSB via Tourism Selangor Sdn Bhd. This claim was for first class travel for his family + A class accommodation in Orlando Florida and the 'Disney Hotel' during the period of 23 December 2007 to 1 January 2008. Who the fuck are u trying to kid by claiming a 'technical visit' during the world's main holiday period at a very popular holiday destination? The trip including first class treatment for his family as well and u know what the bill came up to?


Monday, 25 October 2010

T minus 86

Guys guess what.... i think the bloody project is working! its been 2 days since i started the regime and i've dropped 2kgs! woo hoo... probably just water retention but its surely in the right direction.

from 117kgs - to 115kgs.

target remains - 90kg by 15.01.11

wish me luck guys

Sunday, 24 October 2010

Commencement of project 88

Dear folks, i've decided to use me blogspace to do a little project ala project julie/julia style. Basically, after all the nagging and comments received in the last few weeks, i've finally caved in and will do what i've been procasticating for over a decade.

But before that, a quick update. If you do read my sorry little excuse for bytes on the internet page, you would know that by now - i'm legally married to my beautiful wifey - Yvonne.

Liverpool has replaced the stupid yanks with a new one - not sure how that's gonna pan out - but i'm sure its better than keeping those 2 bozos. Personally - it would do alot of good to see liverpool get relegated. at least we could start fresh! another bright spark is that we won the match last nite against da rovers. it was a nail biting affair towards the end. nevertheless - its always about the result- and finally we got one. Though still 3rd from the bottom - i see better days ahead and i really dont think we'll be there much longer.

As for married life - its fantastic - apart from all the new responsibilities that come with it. Things like remodelling 2 small rooms can be a real task! gosh - i need a spot of jhonny just thinking about it... anyhow - with the ROM on 10.10.10 there were alot of pictures circulating mainly on fb. I was lucky to have the luxury of many friends with big cameras who volunteered to take some pictures for me. Hence - the many photos. I must say, from all that i've seen thus far - Dom's pics are the best. Do check out his page for some photos from the day. The reception dinner remains in January - which i'm really looking forward too!

Anyhow - i noted that almost EVERYONE commented on how fat i've become. I really couldn't be bothered - coz i'm fat and happy. alwiz been the case for perhaps the longest time. Then comes the questions - 'dude, are you gonna lose some weight?' and my reply has alwiz been the same - 'why'? it just wont be me right?

then of course, as you clean your room, u find the cupboard with all the pictures you have ever developed and realise - 'wtf. i was that thin??' then of course - your colleague (in this case rachel) finds some old photos from like 2-3 years ago and uploads them on fb and you see you face and go - gosh i was that small then?

thereafter - there's the wife that says - 'darling - we've got less than 2 months to prepare for the wedding (dinner)' which i interrupt to say 'no dear - we've got 3 months'....

then she snaps and says - 'dont get wise on me!'.. and that's when like any good husband - (I just roll my eyes and shut the fuck up)...

then she says 'we look so fat during our ROM'... 'we must lose weight and look fantabulous for the reception dinner'... and I go - 'what for?' just to gain it all back??? i thought to myself...

anyhow.... i must admit - i feel unhappy that i look like a fat walrus in a suit during my ROM. When i look back and see my old pictures and realise that - 'eh - maybe i'm in denial, maybe i just dont have what it takes and am ashamed / or more like I dont have the will power or i'm just a coward'.. or plain simply - i'm i really happy being fat?

then i reflect back - i used to be freaking fit. I loved running, sports, camping, etc, etc..... what happened? i can barely go up a flight of steps without gasping for air... where did that person go?

and now that i'm forever feeling sick - with the headaches, sinus attacks, palpatation, ezema, chronic sore throat - i really fear for my future. Now that i'm married - i must be responsible to ensure that I have a trouble free life so that i can take care of another (and hopefully some offsprings).... at least die trying....

apart from that - i eat like there's no tomorrow - i still smoke (though i'm proud to say that i'm a social smoker whereby i generally only smoke when i drink - which is not very often).... and i'm forever feeling tired... its really pathetic!

just last friday i went out salsa dancing. I had a couple of dances and then felt the air was thin. I had my head down and could barely catch my breath. now that's just not right. it was scary too.

so as of yesterday - i decided to commence project 88. 88 apart from being a very nice number for the chinese... it also represents 88 days to the reception dinner (from yesterday of course)...

For this project - i plan to lose as much weight as possible. I've set some targets which I've yet to finalise - like targeted weight loss, targeted sugar levels, etc, etc.... Once i've finalised them, i plan to monitor my progress on a chart which i hope to share it here.

So guys - i hope that I will do my best to lose all that weight and become fit again. Hence - project 88. 88 days to the reception dinner. 88 days to lose at least 20 kgs. 88 days to become healthier, lower sugar levels, better bp reading, better cholesterol readings, no more sore throat or nasal problems... etc... etc....

for the record - i've systematically brought all my levels down - but some are still borderline hence my preference to bring them down further....

so to do this - i'm gonna start my reducing my food intake..... no more organ meet (sob sob - i really love intestines and liver).... no more fatty food (no more curry puffs, vadais - fried stuff, etc)... no more binge eating (no more snacks)... no more ice cream (Nooooooooooooooooo)... reduce carbs (gosh this is gonna be tough since i LOVE rice!)... etc... etc

then i will commence phase 2 - havent figured that one out yet. but i guess it'll include some lifestyle changes like choice of eateries, exercise, less smoke, less drinkning, more sleep, etc, etc

Since i planned it yesterday - i havent really started. Besides I only thought of it like late at night - so there's no way i could've started yesterday.... :P... anyhow.... project 88 sounds better than project 87 right? lol....

so the healthy food regime commences today officially.... t-minus 87 days to a fitter better me!

see you at the finish line!


Saturday, 9 October 2010

Ding Dong the bells are gonna chime!

There are drinks and girls all over London,
and I've gotta track 'em down in just a few more hours!
I'm getting married in the morning!
Ding dong! The bells are gonna chime.
Pull out the stopper! Let's have a whopper!
But get me to the church on time!

Great lyrics from perhaps my favourite musical of all time. Its a song that you either hate it or love, but one's things constant, the character singing the song - the jolly ol' Doolittle is one whom u love to hate yet hate the fact that you do love his eccentricities. I have no intentions on educating how great the work from great old Georgie Bernie Shaw and the talented Alan Jay Lerner that has entertained generations, but I'm here to share to all who actually tuned in to my little cyberspace project that I am 'getting married in the morning'....

I can't describe my feelings right now, but its that of pure happiness. Yvonne and I have decided to get married a few months ago and have selected 10.10.10 to be the PERFECT day to make things official. (the reception dinner is only gonna be in January). I know its a corny date... but hell... this way - i can never forget the it!

Its truly an amazing experience and I can't wait for tomorrow. Like from the play i can relate to when Eliza sings 'i could have danced all nite and still have begged for more. I could have spread my wings and done a thousand things, i've never done before'.... That's exactly how I feel like tonight. I really can't wait for it to start and be officially a married man!

We'll be getting married at the Chempaka Buddhist Lodge at approximately 8.20am. We've decided to keep it a small do with just our direct families as the place is not very big and we fear that the 3 hour long prayer session may be just a bit long and tiring for some.

Its funny coz I was once a hopeless romantic always looking for the cheesy cliche-ish line to put on a smile... always believed in rose petals , poetry and scented candles, etc, etc.... But in recent times i find myself hopelessly obsessed with practicality.

Hence, whenever people asked us stories about how I proposed' I regretfully answer that urm... 'well I did it the practicall way, urm.... we discussed the idea of marriage' and that was it. Which is true - we did discuss about it and a chain of events occured.

Well in a way, how we got to tomorrow is somewhat similar to the 'green card' model.. you know that hallmark movie with Gerard Depardieu... where the the movie poster reads - 'The story of two people who got married, met and then fell in love'...

well our story is slightly different... the love part clearly came first... however the lead up to the marriage was interesting...

we agreed on a date then we informed our parents individually.. then i asked her parents permission to marry her... then i bought the wedding band... made the engagement ring MUCH later... then had a proposal with the bended knees on the beach of kuching in front of my dear friends with a mock ring made by me sista from another motha and fatha (ms mah of course) which she made from the leaves she found under her butt (don't ask)... and that folks.. is how tomorrow came to be!

I would like to thank everyone for your warm wishes either via fb or sms. Really appreciate them. To the dirty half dozen who volunteered to play paparazzi tomorrow, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind generosity.

As for me... i really should get to bed...
bed? I couldn't go to bed!
My head's too light to try to set it down!
Sleep! Sleep! I couldn't sleep tonight.
Not for all the jewels in the crown!
I could have danced all night!
I could have danced all night!
And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things
I've never done before.

Good night folks.. today is my last night of singledom. Tonight, I give up my bachelor's degree... and prepare for my ever after!

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

My Liverpool oh my Liverpool

The English footie season is finally over. To describe Liverpool's season as being pathetic is showing too much compassion as Liverpool were utter rubbish from the first match against Spurs sometime last yaer.

Can the sale of 1-2 players, i.e. the likes of Alonso and Aberloa have such catastrophic results?

Is it because the yanks fucking short changed us?

Or has Benetiz seriously lost the plot?

Is it coz Stevie G doesnt believe in liverpool anymore? it surely looked like it all season.

what is going on? From a team that pushed Man Ure all the way last season with only 2 losses can end up losing 11 times and placed 7th.... its just way too maluflying....

I had to endure a season of taunts from Man Ure fans... although words exchanged were unfair but it goes with the territory of supporting the weaker team with such a rich history and rivalry with the current team(s) in form. It is something i've been used to for the past 20 years and frankly i'm fine with it.....

Many a United fan keeps condemning liverpool fans with regards to the past.... but many of my batch mates forget that when footie was easily accessible to us lot... there were no better team to support than United.... As such, these comments just dont make sense and may appear hypocritical...


I really dont hate United.... it may be hard to believe but I do enjoy watching them play.... Its funny coz i DONT WANT THEM TO WIN... but I love watching them play coz they play with this belief and conviction that they deserve to win every single match.... its that fighting spirit and desire and sometimes that arrogance that the team exudes impresses me coz why play if you think you're gonna lose? Furthermore, I sometimes feel that when they take to the pitch, they have it in them that its their God given right to win the match even when playing poorly....

You see that arrogance in the Chelski team too as they feel they deserve to be Champions (i don't think they are champions because of the roman wealth)... and they do deserve to be champions... how often do u see a team win not 1, not 2 but 4 times in a season by scoring 7 goals or more.... or averaging 3 goals at home.... the attacking arrogance of Ancoletti (given they way he disrespects the so call 'big 4' with his line-up) shows the belief he has that his team will score every time out... Think about it.. you avoid a defeat by keeping a clean sheet... but u can't win if you don't score'... so which is it? play defensively and maybe win by the odd goal? or go out and bully the park and score some goals... say 8 on the final day?

for a long time i believed in defense is the best offense.... but now after seeing the confidence in Chelski and United players.. i would like to see Liverpool take on a more attacking style...

However, I truly believe the problem is the mindset of the players.. Liverpool players must believe that they CAN WIN EVERY MATCH BY 2-3 goals.... they need to be arrogant and fight for everything let alone every ball.... its that losing mentality that they have that makes them a deserved laughing stock.... sigh... my liverpool oh my liverpool...

Sometime during the run-in to the season.... i wanted united to win the title.... not because i'm a closet united fan - NO FUCKING WAY TO THAT... but I need this talk about Liverpool's glorious past to come to an end... United are making and rewriting their own history... as such claim all of the Pool's past glories and records.... for its time (surely) for Liverpool to start writing new ones.... we were great in the 60s-80s... but its over... GET OVER IT.... NOW WE ARE NO BETTER THAN THE ALSO RANS LIKE VILLA, CITY, SPURS, EVERTON, etc..... ITS TIME TO PLAY EVERY MATCH WITH PURE PASSION, CONVICTION AND BELIEF THAT WE WILL WIN!!!! We need to prove why we deserve to win the league.... The fact that we lost so many points this season after taking the lead in matches shows that we are really weak mentally... we need to be rid of that and start believing.... whether the yanks or benetiz stays in power.... we should support the club 100% and hopefully the players will wake up and realise that its time to shine!

For the whole of last season... we played with this lacklustre and expectation that we would eventually get there - like get the 4th spot.. (we had many opportunities to turn our season around to claim that 4th spot)... similarly they were so much european romance talk that we would eventually win the Europa cup... but its all over... we lost coz we deserve to lose and never tried to start the season....

the time to change is now... its time to believe! not for the fans for fans especially fans like me never stopped believing... its that belief that has the truth too bitter a pill to swallow let alone many dissapointingly torturous nights.....

what i want is for each player and everyone with the club to have that belief.... as long as the yanks and benetiz are in power... i will support them as that is beyond my control.... and i truly believe we have depth in our squad to become champions... we just need to DO IT

hats off to chelski for winning the league.... united came close to no 19 and no 4 in a row.... maybe they'll get it eventually... well done to chelski for not letting nerves get the better of them... but now liverpool have a chance to claim no 19 first.. so please do it or at least go out trying.... coz if you dont, you might as well just hand over all the records to united and chelski....

hats off to spurs whom i thought had no chance in the run-in but they proved it week after week why they deserve to be in the CL next season - i wish them all the best... they too believe....

and so we need to start believing NOW!

I really wish we got relegated... that way we could probably start fresh... i mean really fresh.... new management / new team (in fact the only player i believe plays to win every match this season in a liverpool jersey was PEPE REINA..... the rest were really shit including Stevie G who has been instrumental and a pride of merseyside in seasons gone by...

winning the championship by bullying the other teams might be a good thing as at least the team will then have the confidence and are used to winning by 2-3 goal margin week in / week out... with that they could go on to claim the premiership... just like what Shanks did back in the 60s.... get relegated - go win div2... come back and win div 1... and never looked back!

of course we could do real bad in the championship and have to fight for a play-off berth... now that's a scary thought!

but till then - YNWA.....

Thursday, 7 January 2010

The Day I lost faith in Malaysia

The use of the word 'Allah' fiasco in Malaysia has taken a new turn earlier today. The events that took place this morning was cowardly, disrespectful and just simply disturbing that such barbaric acts of stupidity can happen in places of worship and peace and more importantly within residential areas. I am of course referring to the arson attacks on 3 churches this morning and 4 cars with Christian worship objects in Bangsar.
Historically, the word Allah orginated from arabic speaking nations to represent the English word God. Its has strong roots within all Abrahamic religions i.e. Judaism, Christianity and Islam, simply because all 3 religions originated from a similar place. Hence the never ending battle to claim the 'Holy Land' or the 'Holy of Holies'.
I draw upon this fact simply because up to today, Arab Jews and Arab Christians use the word Allah as God because they speak arabic. Therefore, i draw upon a simple conclusion that Allah and God is the same, accept that the definition and context within each Abrahamic religion may be somewhat different. Please note that before the rise of Abrahamic religions, the Holy of Holies practiced all kinds of paganism and the Meccan pagans refer to their pagan Gods are Allah as they speak arabic as well. Even the Arabic-descended Maltese language of Malta, whose popupation is almost entirely Roman Catholic, uses 'Alla(no 'h') for 'God' up to today.
This is why there are so much similarities within the holy books of all 3 Abrahamic religions and many other common factors. To me, Allah and God is the same like Musa and Moses, Ibrahim and Abraham, Isa and Eesus (Jesus) Mariam and Mary, so on, so forth. I mean no disrespect or do i wish to throw another spannar into the works but this is just my view based on the little research i have done or based on what i have noticed from arabic speaking friends from around the world.
However, if a person feels that the word Allah can only be used by a certain faith to represent God, or the Supreme Being, or the Creator, etc, etc.... and if the same person believes that the use of the word Allah by other followers of other faiths means using Allah's name in vain.... the only conclusion I can draw upon is the fact that Allah must mean a name to represent a mythical God by this person. Hence why another faith cannot use the NAME not the WORD 'Allah'.
However, I truly do not think this to be so. I just think its 2 words from 2 different languages to mean the 'Supreme Being' or the 'Creator' or just simply God. As all 3 Abrahamic religions started because of the concept of the 'Supreme Being', 'Creator' and the 'One true God'.
Its only natural for different religion especially the different Abrahamic religions to have a slightly different theological meaning to God.
History has proven yet again as we write the annals of our history how stupid we are to allow silly and mindless sensitivities, to lead to acts of violence and destruction. Will we ever achieve peace?
Religion was meant to teach right from wrong, to do good not bad, to help give faith for a better after life and more importantly - to gain peace.
BUT MAN has time and time again used it as a fuel to rape the minds of people and to increase its artilery for the simple purpose of declaring war on the human race and all in the name of greed. Greed for power with religion as its tool is found in every chapter of human history. When will we learn?
How will 1 Malaysia be reached? Will there be peace on earth? I can only sit and pray.

Please note, that when i was growing up, I was raise in a home with mixed faiths - none of which Abrahamic related. I studied bible studies and my neighbour's dad thought me Islam and Jawi when I was younger. I never converted or accepted any religion, not because i dont believe in them. I see the strength and beauty in studying all these different religions. Take both Hinduism and Buddism and we learn of its simple beauty as its a 'way of life' ruled by rules of doing good and kindness in seeing the suffering of the world. But I just can't accept any religion because every reason for sadness caused by Man in the annals of time has religious implications. king henry the VIII, IRA, attack on churches of Buddhist extremist in Sri Lanka, the Holocaust, both world wars, 9/11... and now this..